Suicide...

i do thought of commiting suicide...
but somehow i am still alive...
i took the knife trying to slit my wrist but my hand shakes...
i cut it but not deep enough, it only turns out to be scratches...
it hurts though when it hits water...
i guess i am just afraid...
it's the fear that stopped me from doing it...
i guess those who had commited suicide was fearless and really do got nothing to lose...
but, i am in fear... i am in fear to my God... i am in fear of losing my life...
the only way to get my suicide is by writing it down...
it's funny to think how writing had saved my life...