Your Winning World

though i've taken many wrong paths and experienced a lot of downfall in my life,
i still haven't learnt from my mistakes...
why am i still letting those people to break my heart?
why am i so weak?
why can't i fight this urge to cry?
why am i still pretending to be okay?
what's wrong with me?
this time, i'll be honest with myself and tell you all how i really feel...

i'm really broken-hearted.
i feel used and jaded....
at first, i never thought that i could ever feel all that.
it's really painful having to feel this.
you use me like a toy for a moment of joy in your life...
i'm not just another girl that you 'get' or who had fallen for your lies,
i'm just another heart being broken by you...
and you seem to enjoyed it...
i don't understand the world that you're living in...
but, in my world, hearts are supposed to be pure
love supposed to make you happy
and life supposed to get better
people supposed to take care of one another
lovers supposed to love each other without straying from faithfulness
moments supposed to be cherished
but all of these things, i could not reached...
i guess my world never exist...
.... and your world had won..
Congratulations on winning!
if you're satisfied with what you did, with your world,
be happy to know that my coffin will touches the ground of six feet under as you held your winner's throphy...